how to describe what is going on now. i'm not sure. my feelings are mixed up. i have a lump in my throat as i write this. my father is fading. i doubt seriously he will live through the weekend. i pray for a quick release. that the Lord Jesus come to his servant take him to his reward. that is my prayer. i love you dad. thank you for the blessings of faith and love that you gave to me. thank you for the love reading and literature and history. thank you for teaching me the art of patience and art of listening. be at peace. i love you.