Thoughts on the Situation

I would have posted some pictures I took at the pep rally, but for two reasons. The first is they were kind of boring and second was more important, I can't get my camera to download, there seems to be a problem with the connecting wire, or the port that said wire goes into. Either way the boring pictures are still on the camera and will probably end up in a pixulated-picture graveyard, eventually.

I'm so tired of this economy. I'm trying my hardest not to, as Dave Ramsey says, "participate in the recession," but it gets harder and harder every day to keep my focus, my optimism, and my head above the proverbial waters. I am coming to the conclusion that I am in a career crisis, more than an economic one. But the former is being followed oh so quickly by the latter. Here's my problem, essentially, in a nut shell: I am doing what I've always wanted to do: librarian, but its only a parttime gig. I also work parttime at a bookstore and that is very parttime. I have learned some things thing about parttime work, its good when you can get it, but it can be farily unreliable and you work just as hard, if not harder than fulltimers, and get none of the benefits (insurance, etc). To a degree that is unfair, but I guess that's what I signed up for.

I am optimistic that things will get better. Its just seems so far away. I am frustrated, but not to the point of giving up. If anything I am becoming more determined, but my determination is not making the employment appear any faster or in greater quantity. I am hamstringing myself and I must be fair about that-- I want to stay in the area. I'm not all that interested in moving. There are jobs out there, but I don't want, nor can I really afford to, move to places like Idaho and California.

If nothing else, this experience has taught me to lean heavily on prayer and my faith and that is an important thing to be reminded of. I am also lucky that I have people that are rooting for me, my mother, and most importantly, my girlfriend. Its a little frightening right now, okay a lot frightening, but I'll get through this. The valley, as they say, may be deep, but you know something, it isn't unsurmountable.