Something Big is Stirring in my Brain

I keep coming back here tonight. Repetedly. I come back and hit the "compose" button look at the blank screen and watch the little black cursor blink at me in expectation and nothing happens. I move my mouse to the little red box with little white X in the middle and close down the window. Five minutes later I do the whole excercise again, but I keep finding friendly blogs of people I knew in a past life in Texas. People I cared about a great deal, but as time marched on we kind of fell out of contact. My favorites list has grown a bit longer the last few days as I add blogs to read.

I keep coming back here. I obviously have something to write, but I don't know what it is. I can feel the words rolling around in my head like big verbal boulders, but the avalanche hasn't started yet. I'm not sure what will happen when the boulders start rumbling down. I guess we'll see, won't we?